In an era of breakneck technological advancement, “ethics” has become the ultimate buzzword—wielded by corporations, policymakers, and institutions as a shield against criticism. But as Ben Wagner astutely observes in his chapter from Being Profiled, ethics is increasingly deployed not as genuine moral commitment, but as a convenient substitute for binding regulation. Welcome to the age of ethics-washing and ethics-shopping.

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This year I realized that I would like to improve certain aspects of my life. Years ago, I voluntarily signed up for many additional courses and responsibility. People around me have been asking on why I have so many hobbies that I would like to keep. Still people started questioning on how I can split my time. Do I even ever to go to bed? Few years ago I touched my lowest point, where I only managed to sleep for about at most 3-4 hours a day. My brain never stopped, even when I’m sleeping. I became addicted to work and study. I had no idea what I was suffering from until I was burned out. I wished that I have noticed it sooner. Nowadays, I am trying to improve my habit in order not to risk my health even further. Recently, everyone keeps telling me how much of a different person I am now. I developed some important skills to cope. It will be never perfect, at least I think things are improved now.

I have noticed that sometimes as a human, we would like to push ourselves to be better at something faster. However, our bodies also have its own limits. There will be a time where we think that our live will be nothing if our output only consisted of what we have achieved during normal “working” hours. Everything wonderful or amazing or exciting that we have ever done was hyperfocusing on something during the night. Without a balance this can cause a vicious cycle that will accumulate more “debts” in the future.

Although the conscience of changing come from within, I think I also received many helps from my loved ones. There may be still time where I have difficulties of relaxing, yet I received many encouragement from both of my partner and my friends to do something that I really enjoy with any prejudice.

Be kind to yourself, as always.

It’s midnight already, yet, my mind just full of reflections on what’s happened in the past, present, and some thoughts about the future. This is where I’d like to share some of the prayers that have been granted, where I ended up realizing that everything has its own course.

Dislaimer

The idea of “chance” has been popped up to my mind since few years ago. Yet it comes up again after I have a deep conversation earlier this month. Here I won’t talk what’s exactly we’re talking about, for you the person whom I can talk nearly about everything, I’m really grateful that you’re still putting up with lots of my “silly” questions. One thing that I learned is how our backgrounds affected our thoughts process. I’m quite surprised on how the conversation that I had opened my eyes so that I’m able to see things from other perspectives.