This year I realized that I would like to improve certain aspects of my life. Years ago, I voluntarily signed up for many additional courses and responsibility. People around me have been asking on why I have so many hobbies that I would like to keep. Still people started questioning on how I can split my time. Do I even ever to go to bed? Few years ago I touched my lowest point, where I only managed to sleep for about at most 3-4 hours a day. My brain never stopped, even when I’m sleeping. I became addicted to work and study. I had no idea what I was suffering from until I was burned out. I wished that I have noticed it sooner. Nowadays, I am trying to improve my habit in order not to risk my health even further. Recently, everyone keeps telling me how much of a different person I am now. I developed some important skills to cope. It will be never perfect, at least I think things are improved now.
I have noticed that sometimes as a human, we would like to push ourselves to be better at something faster. However, our bodies also have its own limits. There will be a time where we think that our live will be nothing if our output only consisted of what we have achieved during normal “working” hours. Everything wonderful or amazing or exciting that we have ever done was hyperfocusing on something during the night. Without a balance this can cause a vicious cycle that will accumulate more “debts” in the future.
Although the conscience of changing come from within, I think I also received many helps from my loved ones. There may be still time where I have difficulties of relaxing, yet I received many encouragement from both of my partner and my friends to do something that I really enjoy with any prejudice.
Be kind to yourself, as always.